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'HAVE A NICE MEAL' the microwave told me when I finally pulled out my lukewarm coffee. It was almost 2-o'clock and I had already gone through two cups; one had been gulped down that morning at breakfast and the other had been soaked into a stale towel that had also swallowed some spilled milk. I weaved through flashcards, tinker toys, and building blocks on my way to my chair. The kids were in their room watching a movie so I had been looking forward to a moment of peace to enjoy my brew. I sat down and took in that first, tepid sip.

*THUNK*

Immediately my two and a half year old daughter, Diannah the Dinosaur, started crying. I clunked my coffee on the side table and rushed to their room. ‘Had she been climbing the dresser again?’ I thought to myself. Upon entering their room my six year old daughter, Sarah the Bug dispels this thought when she says, "It was an accident," from on her top bed bunk.

I glanced down at the Dinosaur. One side of her face was red, a large V-Tech laptop lay on the ground beside her.

"What happened?"

"It was an accident." The Bug repeated.

"What happened?"

"I threw the computer off my bed," she said slowly.

"Go stand in the corner," I told her. I tried to keep my tone level and attempted to sound stern, not upset, despite the anger that clouded my thoughts. I had six minutes to make sure Dinosaur was okay and to calm down before I had to deal with Bug.

I bent down to help the still crying Dinosaur up. I gave her a hug and she hugged back. That’s all she needed and her crying quickly subsided; She had always been thick skinned, as her nickname implied. I looked her over, her eyes weren’t dilated. "Can you count to five?" She responded by counting to not to five but to twelve because she's an overachiever like that. "Are you sleepy?"

"No. Fruit snack?"

I smiled, no concussion. "Okay, do you need some juice too?"

"Yes." She took my hand and led me to the kitchen. Checking the time out corner I saw that  Bug was standing there with her nose buried in said corner. ‘Good job,’ I thought to myself. I got Dinosaur some juice and she decided at the last minute she would prefer a bowl of blueberries to fruit snacks. Back in their room she grabbed her blanket and nestled into the comfy kid’s chair. She was quickly distracted with her favorite Ruby Gloom cartoons.

I took a deep breath and walked to the living room as the time-out alarm went off.

"Bug," I called as I sat down in my favorite chair, "We need to talk." The blue cushions did nothing to comfort the nervous feeling in my stomach.

She slid in quietly and said once more, "It was an accident."

I took a breath. "I know, but you hit your sister with a computer."

"I didn't mean to."

"And I'm happy about that, but you still hit her." I ran through my mind what punishments I could implement. She didn't do it on purpose, so a butt bopping wasn't in order. She had already lost all rights of choosing what shows to watch at bed time due to breaking one of her sisters toys earlier that morning; once again on accident. I didn't want to take T.V. away. What did my mom do when I had done something like this? At a loss of ideas I posed Bug with the question, "What are you going to do to make it better?"

She stared at me and I gave her a moment to think. "I can be nice to her." She responded hopefully.

I suppressed a sigh, trying to figure out where to go from here. ‘How could being nice be a punishment?’ Then I remembered something my mom told me nearly every day when I was Bug’s age: 5 nice things for every mean thing. "Okay." I told her. She smiled like she just got away with something, "You have to do 5 nice things for you sister. I'll be keeping track." Her smile faltered like mine used to when my mom had said the same thing.

"Like what?"

"Well you can start by apologizing."

She stomped off and I heard, "I'm sorry, Dinosaur." A few moments later, "Mom, she won't hug me back."

‘Well duh, you just hit her in the head with a computer,’ I thought, but instead I shouted,  "Give her time, her head still hurts," across the house as I made my way to their room .
I poked my head into their room, Bug was pouting on the makeshift couch and Dinosaur was watching Ruby Gloom while cuddling with Star the stuffed giraffe. When I reunited with my coffee I scowled at the cold brew and put it back into the microwave. "HAVE A NICE MEAL" it told me yet again and I stuck my tongue out at it. I pulled out the hot cup and started the trek back to my chair and found Bug picking up the flash cards.

"I'm cleaning up sissy's mess because it's nice."

I nodded and let a smile play at my lips, "Yes it is. That's two. Good Job."
Playing Nice
Something that happened the other day. I decided to put it in story format and share with you the headache it gave me. It was a long day to say the least. 
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So my eye is still in warble warble mode... BUT! I saw a neuro-opthomologist about it and it turns out it is most likely just a 3 month long Migraine!!! WOOT! 

My eye is undamaged and life will go back to normal once the damned thing finally breaks. Problem is getting it to break. Right now I'm taking a fistful of meds every morning. I feel amazing while the meds are working. Still have warble vision, but it's taking some of the stress off my head. But once they stop working I have a killer headache and feeling back to shit. Can't stand the extremes between the two. But hopefully this means it will break soon. I will need to order an MRI later to make sure it's just a bad migraine and not something worse. I'll keep you all up to date. Love you all.
I have an appointment with an neuro opthomologist on the 15th. Hopefully they can figure out what's wrong with my eye and even reverse the damage that's been done.

Also, I'm doing Camp NaNoWriMo this July. Haven't really had anything post worth as of late. Might throw some Dragon's Blood at you or something. Now sure yet.
About a month or so ago I took up an eye patch so I can function. My doctor has no idea what's going on with my eye and suggests I keep the patch on until I can be seen by a refereed nuro optomologist. Who was supposed to call me and still hasn't. The VA has been dragging their feet on getting me the paper work I need to update my case. But this I was able to handle, irksome as it may be.

Last night I found out, despite my own precations to keep my eye from getting more damaged, I have lost all low light vision in that eye. The distortion is getting worse and there is NOTHING I can do. Like what the hell? I'm supposed to be able to function properly and I'm just falling apart and no one is helping.

Eye patches are getting beyond annoying. All I have are cheep temporary eye patches with foam that degrade when in contact with sweat. Then the foam get in my eye and it's even more of a pain. I don't wear the patch then I get nauseated from the things I see with my eye. Also people really don't pay attention. Seriously, I swear people bump into my blind side on purpose now. I can't see you, get out of the way, make a hole. 

I don't really have anything I can do, and I guess that's why I'm so pissed off. I have the kids so I can't just float away and 'get better' because one, they're my responsibility and two I don't think I'm going to get better. 
So my eye is still in warble warble mode... BUT! I saw a neuro-opthomologist about it and it turns out it is most likely just a 3 month long Migraine!!! WOOT! 

My eye is undamaged and life will go back to normal once the damned thing finally breaks. Problem is getting it to break. Right now I'm taking a fistful of meds every morning. I feel amazing while the meds are working. Still have warble vision, but it's taking some of the stress off my head. But once they stop working I have a killer headache and feeling back to shit. Can't stand the extremes between the two. But hopefully this means it will break soon. I will need to order an MRI later to make sure it's just a bad migraine and not something worse. I'll keep you all up to date. Love you all.

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Kandice Saur
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I am a stay at home mom of two crazy children who like listening to me read H.P Lovecraft, fantasy stories and the occasion story by Mom.

My first love was my imagination and I am still in love with it. Now that my heart has more occupants I have less time to write, but that doesn't mean I am unhappy.

I enjoy writing just to write, but if someone likes it, it makes me twice as happy. If you don't like it I could always use the critique. I can always improve.
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Venom-V13 Featured By Owner Jul 11, 2015
Happy Birthday!! Fun cake birthday cake
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WTFgirl Featured By Owner Jul 11, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
THANK YOU!!! You're so awesome to hit me with this!
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Venom-V13 Featured By Owner Jul 11, 2015
Hehe, you're welcome, hopefully it was an awesome day! ;)
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WTFgirl Featured By Owner Jul 12, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
It was pretty good. Pretty much like a normal good day.
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CommnderShepard117 Featured By Owner Mar 11, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
Thanks for the watch!
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WTFgirl Featured By Owner Mar 11, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
No prob. Thank you as well. 
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CommnderShepard117 Featured By Owner Mar 11, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
Anytime! Feel free to check out my gallery! :)
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WDLady Featured By Owner Aug 25, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you for the faves, hon! :heart::love:
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Thanks so much for the llama!
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WTFgirl Featured By Owner Feb 9, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
No problem. You gave one and I returned one. 
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